Im not entirely sure at this point, but there might be a god yet. The reason i'm analysing this is because a series of events occured to me today that can't be explained otherwise. It's like every once in a blue moon god actually tries to help you out, and in this case i think he was trying to hook me up.
Heres how it is:
I was planning on not going to fridays economy resitation because i was going to hand in my homework a day early. Well, when i went on line to look up the office hours of the professors and TA's to find out when to drop the hw off, i quickly learned that all the times have passed. I was ticked, now i had to get up at 8am and go to that unnesisary class.
As soon as i got there i handed in the paper, and since i had another class after this one, i just stayed. i went up to the back of the auditorium to hide my sleeping eyes. as i was sitting down i noticed a pretty good looking girl within visual proximity. i was like ''coo, good seat'' just as i was getting comfortable in my seat the TA says he doesnt have a mic so we all have to move up. Again, i was pissed.
I grabbed my things and moved up to the middle of the place, sat down, and got comfortable. From the seat i saw everyone moving up, then i saw the hot girl again, she was grabbing her things and starting toward the front as well. then omg, not only did she choose a seat that i could see her from again, she picked my row! and sat only 2 seats away from me! as she sat down she made eye contact with me and gave me a smile. My first reaction to this was, ''ok what kind of sick joke is this?''
Now heres what makes all this so interesting, the place is huge, there wasnt more than 30 people attending, and of all the hundreds of open seats still remaining, she picked one only 2 from mine.
Still in shock, i tried to ignore this breach in the fabric of space-time. i had a quiz next class so i pulled out my notebook to study. Now heres where things start to get wierd. at a random 17 minutes into the lecture, i decide to take my coat off, almost simultaniously, she takes hers off. ''hmm, coinsodence'', i thought. i guess she wasnt paying attention to the lecture either becasue again, at some random time, as i go to put my notebook into my backpack, she does the same. this time i was like ''what the hell!?''
I decide to ignore this coinsodence too and just accept that im trapped in a Twilight Zone episode. I throw my head back and take the remaining 10min or so to nap.
Just prior to the end, i sit up in preperation to leave. I looked over at the hot girl and there she was, napping in the same position i was in.
Before the TA actually dismissed us, i decided to go down afterwards and ask him a question because something he said ealyer in the lecture provided a discrepancy with something on my homework. Just as I made this decision, class was dismissed, everyone headed to the rear, everyone that is except her. she heads down towards the TA. Since she was closer to the isle, i had to follow her all the way down to the stage.
By this time she must think im some crazy psycho following her and trying to kill her or something and that she should have never sat near me.
Well there we were, just me, her, and the TA occupied with his piles and piles of papers. She asks her question, i wait patiently, then i ask mine. I had a short question, so just a moment later i proceded to the top to make my exit. she continued repacking her backpack.
In the lobby, just infront of the doors, I take a moment to suit up. you know, put on the hat, pull on the gloves, zip up the jacket. Im about to finnish and there she was. Just she and I. She had just made it to the lobby and was now doing the same thing i just completed. Thats when i sighed and left.
When she left, so did the long string of ''coinsodences''. About 50ft from where we exited, i turned to see if i could catch one last glimps of her, she was no where in site. It was at this point i made a huge realization, God was giving me ample opportunities to talk to this girl, and now he was done, and as always i screwed it up. MOTHER! due to my own lack of confidence and intense case of nurvousa, i passed up yet another golden oportunity.
Final Thought:
It is in my experience that all these positive events occuring to me in such a short period of time could not have happened by shear coinsodence. There must have been some higher power exercising its abilities out of extreem pitty for this poor excuse for a human. If god is up there, one things for sure, he knows he waisted his time, and now hes as pissed as all hell at my neglegence, and he is just as sadomasochistic as giving, so it's probably pretty safe to assume, I'm in deep shit.
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